Exhaustion plays no role, for I am floating.  It’s true, Becky wasn’t lying when she said I would get ‘it’ eventually.  I didn’t. Confused, broken picker, lost without a clue of which direction I really needed to push.  Settling was my problem.  I settled oh so often. And even if I haven’t found ‘it’, I at least know what ‘it’ is.  I feel it everywhere today.  The sun is shining, my dog actually cuddled with me this morning, my body just FEELS better. Can it be that when your mood lifts so high that most aches and pains subside? 

I let it all go this morning, I will not let them get me down.  No amount of stress or other people’s problems can bring me down from this feeling.  It’s the high I get when I’m done jogging.  It’s the warm feeling when I’m balled up under the covers on a cold night.  It’s the ice cream on my hot apple dumpling.  You know that stupid song from The Sound of Music about your favorite things… Yea. Anyways enough of that.

I had a dream last night, it was oh so cool. I was running around the parking lot of a concert in a halter top and skirt kissing and dancing with the girls to make the boys jealous.  I was with the most amazing friends and we were eating tofu scramble with vegetables. 

‘My life as a daydream
My life as a road to the Promise Land
My life is nothing but a Fairy Tale
I guess that’s who I am.’